struggles with miscarriage
Thursday, December 13, 2012
10 weeks and a day!
Yay I am 10 weeks and 1 day today! I lost all three of my babies before this point and I am feeling good and feeling as though I might bring this baby home! Yesterday I pulled out my doppler and after about 15-20 min I was able to find the beautiful little heartbeat. It ranged from the high 170s to 180s and sounded beautiful I was able to listen to it for about a min then it wiggled away! I was so happy to hear the beautiful noise and it made my day absolutely perfect. I keep praying that this is my little miracle and that in 28-30 weeks I will bring my beautiful healthy baby home from the hospital.
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
God answers prayers
Sorry I forgot to update! Last week I went in for my second ultrasound, after baby measuring 4 weeks 3 days two weeks before I expected to go into the second ultrasound with either bad news or a baby measuring 6 weeks 3 days. Well we went in and baby measured 7 weeks 5 days which was close to where I thought I was and baby had a beautiful heartbeat. I was so excited and in shock. God is so good and I feel so blessed that at this point he is answering my prayers. I don't know if God will allow me to bring this baby home and hold it in my arms but for now God is showing me that everything is going to be okay and that God will take care of me no matter what happens with this baby! I am still praying for my miracle and that God will allow me to bring this baby home from the hospital and that it will be healthy, beautiful blessing to our family!
Here is our little miracle at 7 weeks 5 days! I am now 8 weeks 5 days so I am slowly continuing on in this pregnancy! =)
Here is our little miracle at 7 weeks 5 days! I am now 8 weeks 5 days so I am slowly continuing on in this pregnancy! =)
Monday, November 26, 2012
Tomorrow is the day
Tomorrow is the day that we find out if i am having miscarriage #4 or baby #4. I am so scared, nervous, hopeful, and every emotion that you can imagine. I have spent the last two weeks praying and praying for this baby, praying that God will allow us to bring this baby home and raise it! I am hopeful that maybe this is my rainbow baby. I can't wait until tomorrow comes so that I can be off this rollercoaster ride. I am just ready to either mourn this loss, or get excited about this pregnancy and baby! I keep praying that regardless of what God does I am praying that I will turn to God and cling close to him, whether it is good or bad news.
Saturday, November 17, 2012
A time of prayer
I have decided that I am on FB all the time! So I decided after some prayer and thoughts that I am taking a break from FB until my next Ultrasound. Instead of getting on FB I am going to pray, read scripture and spend time with God. I am going to focus on praying over my little one. I am praying for a miracle. I know that God doesn't always choose to preform certain miracles but I am praying he preforms my miracle with my baby!
I am enjoying my pregnancy and am so thankful to feel so sick and to have extremely sore boobs. It gives me hope that this maybe a viable pregnancy! Today with looking up some different scriptures I found some verses that I wanted to pass along.
James 1:2-8 tells us: Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an
opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your
endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is
fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing.
I am enjoying my pregnancy and am so thankful to feel so sick and to have extremely sore boobs. It gives me hope that this maybe a viable pregnancy! Today with looking up some different scriptures I found some verses that I wanted to pass along.
“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you
were born I consecrated you; I appointed you a prophet to the nations.”
Jeremiah 1:5 ESV
"For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth
comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us." Romans 8:18 ESV"So don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today's trouble is enough for today." (Matthew 6:34)
“Be strong and courageous. Do not be
afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he
will never leave you nor forsake you.” (Deuteronomy 31:6)
Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And do
not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He
will make your paths straight. (Proverbs 3:5-6)
1 Peter 5:7 tells us to cast all of our
anxieties upon the Lord because he cares for us.
“Be
anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with
thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God.” Philip. 4:6)
“I know the plans I have for you, declares the
Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a
future. (Jeremiah 29:11)”
“For
the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and
self-discipline.” (2 Timothy 1:7)
“Therefore
do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has
enough trouble of its own.“ (Matt. 6:34)
Friday, November 16, 2012
Unsure...but God is giving me hope
Thursday, November 1, 2012
Got my 2nd set of blood draws
Today was such a good day!!!!
I got the call from my doctors office today that my numbers more then doubled....I went from 84 to 218....yay!!! I am so excited. I finally let the excitement of the pregnancy sink in. I am going to treasure and love this baby everyday that God allows. I am praying/begging that God will allow me to keep this baby and that it would be healthy. Next week I will head in to see the doctor for my first pregnancy visit!!! Then the week after I will have my first ultrasound.
Please Lord let this be my for keeps baby. Let me love and treasure it all the days of my life. Let it be happy and healthy! Thank you Lord for allowing me to love this baby already please help me to take care of it and my other kids in the best way possible. Thank you Lord for this miracle! ~ Amen
I got the call from my doctors office today that my numbers more then doubled....I went from 84 to 218....yay!!! I am so excited. I finally let the excitement of the pregnancy sink in. I am going to treasure and love this baby everyday that God allows. I am praying/begging that God will allow me to keep this baby and that it would be healthy. Next week I will head in to see the doctor for my first pregnancy visit!!! Then the week after I will have my first ultrasound.
Please Lord let this be my for keeps baby. Let me love and treasure it all the days of my life. Let it be happy and healthy! Thank you Lord for allowing me to love this baby already please help me to take care of it and my other kids in the best way possible. Thank you Lord for this miracle! ~ Amen
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Will this be baby #4 or MC #4
Wow!!! I didn't realize how stressful pregnancy is! Last week I got a beautiful positive on multiple tests including a digital. I was so excited although somewhat scared at the same time. My fears of losing another one and having more mc's and more babies waiting for me in heaven, then births and children on earth. It is so scary, frustrating, and hard. I keep crying out to God begging him to allow me to keep this baby and to take it home with me. I don't know if that is going to happen and that scares me but I am trusting that God is working it all for his good. I know if he allows me to mc again that God will get me through. I honestly dont know how I will get through but somehow and I can only do that through God and my family!
I got my blood drawn yesterday and will again tomorrow to see if my levels are increasing the way they should be. I am praying that they do but I am concerned that they wont. I am afraid that my nausea and sore boobs mean nothing, and that the spotting that just started today mean everything. My tests are still strong, but I can't help being scared.
It is so weird to not be super excited about being pregnant but I know it is because in the past year my innocence has been taken, after three healthy beautiful boys, I have struggled and struggled to keep a pregnancy. I have had at least 3 MC's in the past year with a possible chemical in there from last month. It is heartbreaking, devastating, and crushes me to the core.
Please God be with me, and be with this beautiful baby. I thank you for everyday you have allowed this baby to be in my belly and I ask that I enjoy everyday. I beg of you to allow me to bring this baby home and care for it. Please entrust this baby to me, my arms, my family. Help me get through the struggles, pains, and emotions that I am going through. In your name ~ Amen
I got my blood drawn yesterday and will again tomorrow to see if my levels are increasing the way they should be. I am praying that they do but I am concerned that they wont. I am afraid that my nausea and sore boobs mean nothing, and that the spotting that just started today mean everything. My tests are still strong, but I can't help being scared.
It is so weird to not be super excited about being pregnant but I know it is because in the past year my innocence has been taken, after three healthy beautiful boys, I have struggled and struggled to keep a pregnancy. I have had at least 3 MC's in the past year with a possible chemical in there from last month. It is heartbreaking, devastating, and crushes me to the core.
Please God be with me, and be with this beautiful baby. I thank you for everyday you have allowed this baby to be in my belly and I ask that I enjoy everyday. I beg of you to allow me to bring this baby home and care for it. Please entrust this baby to me, my arms, my family. Help me get through the struggles, pains, and emotions that I am going through. In your name ~ Amen
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